Had a late lunch with the seniors. Putri, Diyanah, Lira, Ameera, Cherryl & Shari are like the bestest company ever! They're like so understanding & nice, haha. Heart to heart talk for a while about ______. I can't believe i fell for you. I go for looks most of the time but i don't know why it's so different when it comes to you. It just kinda happen. I didn't purposely hoped that it would happen. You told everyone. My feelings, oh. You never think about 'em. You tell me all stuff that i always wonder about when we talked. Now, my mind is blank when every girl says your name. It's like a resistance to my brain. My heart was aching when they talked about you. I tried to avoid but it keeps getting at me. It's so difficult to forget you. I thought you should have known how the situation would be when we confessed to each other. Everything sucks. I feel suffocated. I need someone here with me. No, not you. If you really were my friend, you should have at least think about me & the position i am in. What a freaking bad day ):

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[V]I need to tell you something. Maybe, it might be some nonsensical thing that i'm about to say. But just hear me out okay. I know i'm not perfect but between me and other girls, i believe i'm so much better than them. Technically, i have never been so close to anyone. I'm young and i still have a long way to go. I just want to tell you how long this deep feeling for you is. I guess i'm too scared that you might not talk to me at all or even say that you love me as a friend. I think too much about the outcome which are mostly negative. If only you can read minds, then i wouldn't be afraid to that extent. I mean, the killer part is you already know all this. How else can i explain it to you?

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[V] There are way too many things to say. I don't even know where to begin. All i can say is, i like you. But we gotta move on. I don't want to be hanging in the air, not knowing what to do or choose. I guess this is the end of us. I never want to hear about you again. But if we bumped into each other, i'll smile & rmbr that look on your face. You bring the sunshine out of me. I now know what i want in my life. Thank you.

Labels: What about love?

Hey earthlings! As usual, school was okay. Anyways, went for Backstreet Boys concert yesterday :) It was so awesome! But the damn bodyguards made me pissed. I was sitted at the centre row but i still can't see Brian, Howie, AJ & Nick. I felt like strangling the bodyguards. They even called the police in. Like WTFFF. But AJ made me really happy again. They were singing 'I'll Never Break Your Heart' & AJ said, 'This song goes to all the sad ladies out there'. I can't describe how hectic and fun it was in the convection theatre! Girls were screaming and singing along. Most of them were standing on their seats and singing really really LOUD. That includes me too, teehee. I guess i'm like the only young fan there. Well, not including those below 13 yrs old, haha. I swear, it was simply breathtaking :D Daddy was so busy taking pictures & videos of them. It was also the first time i heard my daddy sing. HAHAHA. Overall, it was such a great day last night! Sigh, i want to see/hear them live again!! Omgomg, PARAMORE. Ciao.

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To:______
I'm so sorry but i can't tell you anything right now. Your happy day with her has just passed and i don't want to ruin your happiness. It's good to see you being with the one you love. That's all i can say for now. But deep down my heart, i...

Labels: soldier down.