I'm feeling so stressed like hell. Okay, well not really. Ughh, wtv. There are so many hmwrks to complete before i return to school :/ I feel like slacking man. I just wanna talk to Farisah and Arnee. Miss those babes so f-ing a lot. Just texted Lyani and we talked for a while. Heh, can't wait to see that best friend of mine. Things have settled, i guess. Pfffft, i hate all those arguments but i sure had to put up with it. So glad that Jake and some of my other friends helped me through all that. Thank you guys, love yall^^ God knows how much i hate this feeling! I'm back to the stress moment. But hey, there's always hope and yeah, stay positive. I keep looking at my blog, and i have the itch to change my blogskin again. Heeeee. I want it to be pretty. Whoa, i guess today's post will be long. Luckily Jojo and Kesha are keeping me accompay with their songs. They're so talented, haha. Hmm, my mind is blank. I'm just damn bored at home, parents are werking, my brother is in school, my grandma's sleeping and my sisters are at my granny's house. I miss my sisters so much! And i'll never miss my brother. Well, maybe only 5%. That's how much i hate him, lol. Okay, i think i'll end it here. Goodbye!



To maria; I'm really proud of your decision. Although we've only seen and talk to each other once, i know you have a nice heart. It's Sufyan loss for letting go of you. I really hope you'll find happiness.


To ________; I guess it's too late to tell you the truth now. I'm hurt. But i don't dare to say anything. It has been long since i felt this way. I don't mind if you won't accept me. At least take a real good look at me.

Labels: too little too late.

[V]I might be pretending. But nobody knows, nobody.


I changed blogskin again! Okay, these blogskins are literally pissing me off! Some of the skins don't have a 'block' to put my tagboard, some don't have the 'block' to put my songs. Ughhh.. I'm lucky to be a fan of BSB! Their songs make me feel calm and happy. So does Justin Bieber! :) Man, idk why i'm blogging. I'm so tired and pissed. There are so many confusing emotions going through my head now. Make sense? Go figureeeee^ I really wanna talk to _________ but she doesn't seem to get anything at all. She's delighted now. I can't stop her from doing what she wants. I will never want her to know how hurt or sad i am. It's different you know. Shitbulls, no one gets me.

Labels: sadder.

FINALLY, i changed my blog! :) I mean, the blogskin sucks a little, but it's only temporary right? A note to JAKE: You're most welcome babe! I'm always here for you :D
Allrighty, my butt is so numb. And plus, i just got back from physiothrapy. I'm gonna get some rest now. Bye!

Labels: We fall together.

Unrequited love. Somehow, this happens to some of us. Haha, awesome Jake thinks so. AHHHHH, crap. I'm having tummy ache -.- Lol. I'm just chilling since i did not go to school. I tore my ligament, surprisingly. So yeah, my leg's in a cast. My body sistem is effing weak. And the crutches are damn irritating! But it's okay. I mean, i'm willing to put up with it, lol. My heart feels like it's being heal. But i don't know by who, or how. I think i'm starting to like _______. This person really cares about me and is hilarious. I guess, that person will never know. After forgetting about Dydy, i feel more peaceful and sheesh, no more major breakdowns. I realised that he's a sweet guy, but life has to go on. Although i still love him, maybe giving him up is a good thing. Thanks YJ, love u. So now, i'm starting afresh. WHEEEEEE ~ 2010 must be a good year! And, i hope to find a guy best friend. Someone like ________. Because at times, i wonder if things will work out between us.







- It's sweet to know that these two might have smth in common. I want that 'smth'. But maybe, not now. The later, will be better. I'll always treasure that someone.

Labels: i tried too hard.

Who needs a prince charming when you can gawk at hot guys, even if they don't love you back? Maybe, i'm the only one who feels this way. But seriously, it hurts to find true love. You have to go through alot of hardships. When i watched SWAC, i was amazed by how Chad and Sonny are able to go through ups and downs. They are not head over heels on each other and they argue alot. The thing is, can they really be happy by taking that path? I mean, by staying like that. They're not a couple or even friends. It's more like the status: It's complicated. Which really sounds... freaky to me. You don't even know if the guy you're hanging out with all the time, loves you or not. It's up to us, all the girls. I hate how some boys treat girls, like they're three year old. I mean, not all girls dump the boys, and not all boys dump the girls. Life is really weird. But, how do i say this? Hmm, balanced? Maybe, lol. All that i might need now, is education and more hot guys to gawk at. Let's just keep it simple and easy. Study, study, have fun, gawk at boys, gawk at boys! People should try and change. Be a better person. Good luck! :)

Labels: I'm accepting all.